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[andrew_jorgensen]

Bullet points:

• My Grandmother had a severe stroke sometime yesterday or the night before; she's now stable and (we assume) cognizant, but she's got a lot of paralysis and she hasn't been able to communicate. The doctors haven't said anything yet about what the situation is, what sort of meaningful recovery she might make, what sort of awareness she has now. I can kind of sympathize with the more distant family in the Schiavo controversy now; I had a tendency to read intentionality into every tic and spasm last night. Of course, even when my Grandmother had all her faculties, she was ready to die. She's a believer in reincarnation and she's ready to shed her infirmities and start anew. So, not to be too ghoulish about it, I won't be arguing for heroic measures; however, since she's stable, there's no plug to pull. I appreciate your sympathy, and I'm already feeling guilty about how much of my reaction to this is tied up in my own selfishness, so I'd rather not get a lot of comments or e-mails about this. I'll appreciate your expressions thereof, for after all, I'm still an attention whore. Which doesn't mean that I'll know how to I probably won't treat them either graciously or gracefully.
  
  
• After not wearing contacts on Sunday and then wearing daily disposibles on Monday, I put the current pair of fortnightlies back in yesterday, the pair I was wearing that caused Saturday's reaction. By midnight, my right eye was again bloodshot (though the redness started dissipating immediately upon removal of the contact. So I will be less blase about this and go see my optometrist today.
  
  
• I feel that if I don't get into the gym today, I will forget everything I learned in the personal trainer sessions, so I'll be trying to fit that in too.

I think I'll certainly have to peel the banana from both ends today.

Comments

[rahael.livejournal.com]

God, I'm sorry to hear this. Please tell her & your dad that I sent my thoughts & best wishes.

[dherblay.livejournal.com]

Thank you, honey. I will do so.

[mamculuna.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear about your grandmother--it's really hard to see someone you love in that condition. I hope it turns out the best way it can.

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[dherblay.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[ann1962]

I am so sorry! ::hugs:: Please take care through this time.

[dherblay.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I will. I must be taking care -- you can tell when I'm in really bad shape when I just use the default icon everywhere.

[graffitiandsara.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry about your grandmother, I hope things work out in the best possible way, whatever that may be. I know for me it makes a big difference if the person I'm concerned about isn't afraid. It's good that she's ready for her next time around.

[dherblay.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I just don't see things improving for standard definitions of improvement, and it's a little strange hoping for what standard definitions have as being the worst.

[anomster.livejournal.com]

Bubbele, when did you ever go by the standard definitions? I have a feeling everyone in this kind of situation feels conflicted, but most aren't so willing to admit to it. You're entitled to all your various feelings about your grandmother & the condition she's in, & also to our sympathy. No graciousness required, or guilt either.

I'm glad you allowed comments. I'm sorry about your grandmother's stroke. I hope things go as best they can for her, whatever that may mean.

[londonkds.livejournal.com]

I'm very sorry to hear about your grandmother. Take care of yourself.

[dherblay.livejournal.com]

I always do. Wait, why is everyone so skeptical about that?

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

You allowed comments sometime between when I saw this last and now! That's a tough situation you're in, I can't imagine. My grandparents are all gone for a long while now, but my parents are getting up there. I can't imagine having to make that sort of choice in their case. {{{Hugs}}}

[dherblay.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I've gone back and forth on the comments thing. Thank you, and hugs back.

[hermionesviolin.livejournal.com]

I think I'm totally not allowed to comment on stuff like this, 'cause I'm all "Quality of life is gone? Dead, yo. Dead is good. No more drain on resources, especially the sanity of those around you. Is my frustration with my declining grandmother showing? Oops."

[dherblay.livejournal.com]

You're very much allowed to make those comments to me; they make me feel like I'm thinking the right things.

[hermionesviolin.livejournal.com]

I'm glad.

[ladyhelix.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking good thoughts for you DH!!

[dherblay.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[midnightsjane.livejournal.com]

I'm very sorry to hear about your Grandmother's illness. It sounds to me, an old ICU nurse, like the best thing for her and for you is that she be kept comfortable, and allowed her dignity.
My thoughts are with you and your family.